Writing Now vs. Writing Later

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I wrote a scene—from anything—at another point in time. Would the dialogue be the same? Would the outcome be different?

I like to make myself writing schedules for the week, mostly because my brain is an obsessive planner and it needs to know that it’ll be kept busy. However, things happen. Schedules change. Health gives you a giant middle finger. I’ve gotten better with the changes here and there as I get older. I used to go into mild panic attacks whenever I didn’t get all my things on a to-do list done, or if I had to switch things around. Not anymore, thankfully. Sure, the guilt is sometimes still there, especially if I put off writing, but at least it isn’t a full breakdown.

But I do wonder what the outcome of my work would have been like if I’d actually written the scene/chapter/whatever when I was supposed to. Would it have been shit because I was tired at the time? Would it have been amazing? Have I missed out on genius?

I tend not to rewrite entire scenes. I usually just fiddle around with it until I’m happy, then move on to the next. Maybe I ought to start… See what’ll happen when I write the same scene at different points.

Maybe I’ll do that. Time to find a prompt and write it at two different points during the week.

FOR SCIENCE.

Has anyone else had similar thoughts? Or actually done my little experiment? What was your outcome?

 

 

 

Social Media Hiatus: June 13th-21st

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Hi beauties!

Just wanted to make an ~*~*~*~*official~*~*~*~ post on my blog that I’ll be taking the next off from social media. A good planner would have gotten everything queued and ready to go by today, but here I am, as per usual, scrambling.

If you’ve been following me at all, you’ll know I’m concussed. I had a major setback recently that my aunt calls Overconfidence Syndrome. Basically I was so excited about being a functional person again that I personed too hard and set myself back a few weeks. Lots of vertigo and headaches. Computer time really sends me for a loop lately, so I figured it was best to just stay off social media, because it is 100% my biggest time-waster on the computer.

So, I’m going to queue all my stuff. I’ll be checking my accounts through my phone a few times a day in case someone needs anything (but srsly hiatus I promise), and then I’ll be back next week with my usual random, flying-by-the-seat-of-my-pants tweeting.

I have a freelance project due this weekend, and then I owe it to myself to get The King finished ASAP because I’ve had to push its pub date AGAIN due to brain sadness.So, I’ll be around, steadily sending out author interview questions and trying not to get distracted when I do use the computer.

Until next week, guys and dolls.

nb8ky
xoxo gossip girl

 

I did a thing.

I finally wrote a thing! I seldom agree to do guest posts because I’m shamefully bad at sticking to a schedule with my OWN blogging, let alone writing things for others, but this was for a blogger I adore and it was a message I really needed to get out there.

For those of you who are curious about what happened to my brain back in January, this post is for you. For those of you who are injured and struggling to write as you once did, this post is also for you.

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A Hot Mess (aka the first book I ever submitted)

Enjoy a throwback post that I wrote in 2014, because apparently I’m failing at my blogging schedule already. Yeaaay.


 

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The first book I ever sent to a publisher was a hot mess.

I spent years and years writing fanfiction, and I loved doing it. At the back of my mind, I had always wanted to be a writer, and I had a few original ideas penned, a book written—but no drive to do anything with it. So, as my university undergraduate career slowly came to an end, I decided to get my act together and look into publishing ventures. There was so much to learn, and I still feel like I’m drowning in information about an industry that outsiders think is easy-breezy.

One day, I stumbled upon an e-book provider who accepted unsolicited manuscripts from writers without agents. I thought I had hit the jackpot. At the time, I didn’t have anything that fit with what they usually published, but then I found their prompts page. It was basically a page that dictated what their editors would like to see for the upcoming year. There were deadlines to meet and a bunch of different lines for me to write to—I was thrilled.

I eventually settled on one that I figured I could make work: historical romance. I chose the Victorian Era, and went with their prompt to write about the life of a governess. Easy. I decided to add vampires to it, because everyone likes vampires, right?

I finished the manuscript about a week before the deadline. I then scrambled to edit this massive document myself. I think I read it twice over, correcting things as I went along, and that was it.

That was it. No beta readers, no editors, no proofreaders. Hot off the presses, I submitted with a rushed query and a synopsis that was too long for anyone to care about. I, however, thought I had just handed gold over to the editors at this publishing house. Hell, I even mentioned my fanfiction in my query and just how many amazing readers I had.

So, I waited. I even told a writing professor of mine—a published author—what I had done, and he looked at me over the top of his glasses a la Albus Dumbledore.

“So, you just sent it in?” he asked.

“Yup! They said it was fine that I didn’t have an agent.”

“Oh.” A long pause. “Well, best of luck. Let me know if it gets published.”

I waited the twelve weeks it usually took for a response, and was devastated when I received my first-ever rejection. I was stunned. My work was brilliant. I had great characters, an interesting plot, and vague historical accuracy that would probably fly with an uneducated reader.

Like I said, it was a hot mess. Looking back, I realized I started my novel off with the main character in a stage-coach, where she mulled over her life up until that point. It was dreary outside. Six pages of introspection and exposition.

Cringe worthy. Never mind that I hadn’t ever read a Victorian romance before, but I thought I could get away with sending in a manuscript that no other person has ever seen except myself. Rookie mistakes across the board, and I thought I had learned my lesson.

I submitted something else to the same publishing house for a different prompt a few months later. I had a professional editor look it over, and she seemed to like it.

I waited again. I didn’t talk to anyone about it, worried that I’d get my hopes up again by sharing the news.

And… rejection. This time I was genuinely hurt; I worked really hard on the next manuscript, and I thought it was leaps and bounds ahead of the first manuscript I sent in.

But no one gives you a publishing contract for “Most Improved Manuscript”. No one cares. Once again, I hadn’t let any beta readers go through anything, and I assumed my writing experiences with fanfiction would carry me somewhere special.

It didn’t. Not even a little.

These days, I have a wonderful team of beta readers to kick my ass a little. I have people to tell me what they like, what they dislike, and what needs to be scrapped. Writers need to learn that this isn’t a solitary art. It isn’t something you should want to do on your own, even if you spend the majority of your time alone—just you and the computer/pen and notepad. You need feedback. You need your ego checked. You need help. Take it when it’s offered, you literate idiot.